Story of the Goddess of Love & Beauty

Baby Aqiel Amaley Arrives

2006-10-01T13:33:00.000+08:00

Finally the day tt I have been anxiously waiting for arrives. We didn't expect Aqiel to be delivered on that day. My edd was on 18/9/06 tt's by my last menses and by scan was on 28/9/06. I would prefer him to be delivered at the latter date coz i wanna experience fasting while i am pregnant but, he choose to pop out earlier.

Am glad tt i manage to attend my cuz suzee engagement ceremony and had fun while i was there. the cake was delicious. very delicious indeed. am craving for it now.... suzee, u wanna get me a slice? heheheh

The moment i started to push, i tot i won't make it. i tot i don't have the energy to push him out. i felt breathless and tired. at the same time i wanna laugh. maybe the drugs made me 'crazy'. hubby was rt by my side all the while. i remember telling him to remember they broke my water bag at 8.59am. and kept on repeating 8.59 to him while i was on the gas... other repeated qtns are : 1. dear have u eaten? 2. dear what did u eat? 3. dear have the dr come? 4. dr how many cm now? (the cervix stuck at 6cm) and by then i had to be induced and oxytocin was administered to speed up the process. i was given epidural coz the pain was very very bad. i was crying and begging hubby to help me... i still remember tho telling him "bie, i am so scared" and i cried. i remember hubby face look very sad and i tot i saw him cry but he denied it. he told me not to cry and don't be scared. i started to push at 2.10pm and baby Aqiel Amaley was delivered at 2.17pm. He was a healthy 3.396kg baby boy. He cried shortly so he don't need the spanking, hehehe and he was immediately placed on my chest for me to adore. iwhen he was placed on top of me i was stunned. i asked myself is this baby mine? i expected him to be tiny not his big... coz my tummy was pretty small when i was pregnant. soon after, i realised this is it. i am a mom. we are a parent now. we are responsible for him now. its a huge responsibility. i cried and i kissed him and don't wanna let him go. at that moment, he really looked like my dad. oh btw the first person to arrive was my dear dad, step mom, sis ayu & sis ct.

Baby Aqiel was pushed to the ward first as i was experiencing side effects fm the anesthesia, i kept on vomiting and don't feel like meeting anyone. i stayed at labour ward till 4+ and reached wd 81 around 5pm. by then my inlaws, mom, uncles and dad practically most of my immediate family members are by my side. hubby went to nursery and requested for baby aqiel to be pushed to my bed. everyone was so happy especially my dad and mom coz this is their first grandchild and its a boy. they have no sons even when the remarried, so aqiel is the apple of the eye. (is this correct?)

tt night, i asked tt aqiel stayed by my side. i cant sleep and all i did was look at his face and adore him. i love him so much. i can't stop kissing him. hubby on the other side (at wdlands) cant sleep a wink either. he smsed me saying he couldn't sleep and he was thinking abt US. abt aqiel. as parents we want the best for our child and even now, when i was feeling exhausted with all the feeding, diaper changing, expressing breast milk, the look fm his innoncent eyes and his smile makes all my tiredness disappear..... mummy & daddy loves u baby Aqiel Amaley.....

2006-08-05T14:32:00.000+08:00

{My 8th Month}

Wow!!! its been a real journey fm the begining of this year. My pregnancy have been taking the centrestage in our life rt now. it's been a beautiful memory that i will never forget, one that i might never ever get a chance of fulfilling. My pregnancy have been ok despite my constant contractions but it's worth it. Last saturday we had my 7 mth feast some doa selamat and at the same time meeting up with families. Thanks to both cuzzies yana & suzee not forgetting their mom who have contributed so much in the making of our invitation cards.... thanks alot guys baby amaly & his parents tt's us really appreciates it. thank God the feast went well & as planned.

I am on weekly injections now of proluton a very very painful jab. i had to settle and put the trust in hubby to give me the jab. he is not doing it well tho... hahaha fisrt time he did it we both laugh while the needle is still stuck to my ass! the next time i really scolded him not to make me laugh but we ended up laughing again. the last jab was the worse. it was to be given every 12 hours and u imagine, i have no more spot left on my tiny butt for the needle!!! hahaha i cried. coz the med, tt is to strengthen baby's lungs is very very burning.... hehehhhehee. last mon hubby gave me another proluton and this time we had to jab somewhere close to the other marks and it hurts so bad i screamd and cried. really cry my hearts out and told hubby to take the needle off but he insisted that it's abit more and i endured it... after the ordeal hubby was laughing his ass off when he saw i cried like a baby... and even have the cheek to ask me why i cried....!!!!

hahahah it's a funny incident. well, monday is coming and i have to prepare my ass to be poked again! huhhuhuhuhu...... but for baby darling sake, mummy is willing to do anything....

we went to plaza sing yest. i wanna trade in my nokia 3230 coz its been giving me problems and since the warranty ended last 2 weeks i might as well change a new fon. but cant decide to change to which model. hubby was suggesting n80. maybe. i saw this cute lil jeans fm mothercare and i wanna buy it for amaly but shall wait till he is here so i can try it on him... i am so excited....

2006-07-20T17:10:00.000+08:00

{I'm on long leave}

I have been on leave since last monday... cleared my ph and AL an now on hospitalisation leave till... don know when. i was actually forced by my nursing manager to go on leave as i been having contractions and was ordered light duty which they say there is no light duty available for me. hey, i can still work u know... i managed to drag this till last week and its been 1 mth since they voiced out for me to go on unpaid leave..... can u imagine 3-4 mths of unpaid leave??? yeah hubby told me he can manage but i wanna do my shopping!!! not for me tho' its for baby Amaly... heheh yup that's his name Amaly.. we are still deciding for the other name to come b4 amaly.... Amaly means cita2 ku, harapan ku...

well the past week been wasted on cleaning and throwing all the unwanted stuff in my room to make way for baby cuboards and cot... we went hunting for the 2 things and a tv. yup, my tv blew on me last week. y must all the stuff either get damaged or broken when its bonus time? macam tau2 jer... bought the cuboard fm ikea, baby cot cum baby playpen cum changer unit for $ 250 fm mothercare... dad says its too ex... but i really need one that is small and have all the functions. my room is small ok... the tv we bought it fm harvey norman @ millenia walk for $280 but discounted to $240!!! its a flat screen and 21 inch tv.. tt, i bought it myself so i joked with hubby if he chased me out, i shall carry the tv with me along.. hahahah...

since i am on leave i have been spending my time at HOME!!! and i tried my cooking skills which seems to be improving... yahoo!!! last wed i cooked chicken rice set, tues roti kirai with chicken curry, wed nasi lemak set... today? hahah lauk boyan ikan tongkol masak celok jer... penat beb. baby's been kicking me real hard nowaday and he is much more awake during the day now. so, i suffered more back pain and with the growing tummy, it's getting harder to get up now. been putting on 2 kilos in 2 weeks and now i am 48+kg fm 38 b4 i was preg.... hahah... but i still look the same. thank god, no gestational diabetes and no swollen feet. i only suffers fm rashes occasionally.... ok, i m gonna eat now baby's hungry....

2006-06-20T23:51:00.000+08:00

Real Disaster!!!!

After spending 4 days at home sleeping my ass off and doing nothing, today i literally have to drag myself to work. totally not looking fwd to it. and true to my instict it was a busy day as always. all the rooms are open and tho when i started my shift i had around 8 patients, i admitted more than 6 patients and i was trying my best to complete my other outstanding task such as taking my hourly parameters and discharging patients, ordering diet (by 4pm), admissions, bla bla bla.... i was rushing thru everthing to get it done with. by 6 pm i am still discharging patients and admitting at the same time that my patients are not fed. their dinner were only served at 6.30pm..... i then rushed thru some paper works and entered the vital signs in the ed web and collected the plates and send the agv down for washing. i managed to go for my break at 7.30pm! well all of us either missed our break or went at a later time.

ED was really packed. it was pretty bad at ed and patients have to wait for a very long time to get warded coz we are really full house. so, we have to send them over to alex hosp. ee ling managed to joke that downstairs at ed it was like the great singapore sale. yeah rt, i told her it was the tan tock seng sale... hehehe

i really hope they will put more staff over at edtc or deploy some whenever we are busy as u can imagine how can 2 staff managed with 20 patients.... i am running up n down and my rn is up to her neck already & all this with addition of the anxious family members to be entertained..... i really hope we will get more bonus next mth, if there is any hahah dream on!

sleepless nights

2006-06-18T04:41:00.000+08:00

i cant sleep!!!! this is the effect of doing night shifts..... hummphhh. i decided to surf the net searching for baby's name and i can't find the meanings... ended up changing the template for my blog. hubby gonna be mad with me if he found out i am not sleeping...hehehe

i hope today we will finally be going out. kept on cancelling it. i went put wif nor yest to watch Cars. such a cute and funny movie. enjoy it. we kept on laughing but the couple beside me kept on kissing. as if i can't see them. i don't understand these horney bitches. if they wanna do some hanky panky go and do it somewhere else... garden or reservoir or best place is the cemetry. kinky rt? nie kat cinema watching kids show some more! yeah rt for parental guidance. the parents needs to watch the kids not to see the couples smooching. urrggg singaporeans!

i bought another romper for baby. its green with a matching green shoe... heheh i simply can't resist it....

love u honey & baby....

Missing in action... Me

2006-06-04T03:33:00.000+08:00

its been a really really long time since i blog. not tt i don have the time or have nothing exciting to add. it's just that i am too lazy to blog.

its official now that we are expecting a lil boy in sept Isya Allah. Nope no names yet am trying to make hubby agree to a name i have picked so far he's not so into it. hummppphhh....

i have started buying baby's clothes last week. so pink is out of the qtns. what the heck. eversince i am pregnant i am not too fond of pink. i like green and orange!!! yipessss.... so i chose mostly blue and white for baby. i really dig the mickey mouse jumper.... tho it's abit ex but i love it... and i don care. most impt my baby dress cute and nicely. i am really trying not to buy too many coz anything can happen at this stage. baby been moving alot and his kicks are getting stronger as each day passes. today i felt him turning. its uncomfortable but its an assurance tt baby is fine inside and kicking.

before, ppl used to say i am so skinny and i should eat more now, they commented "cant see ur tummy. so small" i hate it when ppl say that. how big do they expect my tummy to be? wont it be funny a small size girl like me having huge tummy that at any time i will fall on top of? i know i am six months pregnant and in this scrub suit how do they expect it to show? unless i am wearing a maternity dress... duh! whatever it is, i am glad that baby is not UNDERWEIGHT! and from 38kg i am now 45.3kg! but dont expect to see me chubbier or fatter coz i am not. i am still the same. skinny yeah watever tt makes u ppl happy.

Baby kicks on daddy's 30th birthday!!!

2006-04-22T01:19:00.000+08:00

I started feeling baby's movement on 14/4/06. it was soft and like a butterfly's fluttering its wings... i was so happy. on 18/4/06 i felt its kicking.... hubby was at work so i immediately called him to tell him of our lil one's progress. we are damn excited. on 19/4/06 which was hubby's 30th birthday, i felt it again and now its more frequent, i placed hubby's palm on my tummy and he felt it too.... we cant stop smiling and hubby kept on talking to baby.... now, i will always look fwd to his kicking and turning. it's not painful yet baby is still small and his bones are soft but wait till he's bigger and his kicking will be painful.

As the days passed by and my pregnancy stages progressed i felt that the pregnancy stage is passing so fast now i m reaching my 5th month it will be all over in 4 mths time. i wanna really enjoy this moment while baby is in me. i felt him and i love him. every dr visits makes me excited to see him. every pregress he makes, made me so happy. during my last visit i found out that i have thalassemia. a blood disorder. luckily tt i am a minor and hubby's blood is fine. so the risk is lower for baby even if he gets it he will be jt like his mommy... a minor. thank god for that. i dont wanna pass any bad genes to my baby....

night duty is becoming much easier for me. my appetite have improve tremendously and i ate alot and at regular time now. tho' i am not putting on much weight and my 4 mths tummy is not as visible, i am glad tt baby is well and fine. tt's the most important thing for me. i have not think of any name for my baby yet. i don't feel the enthusiasm in finding a name. don't know why. but we will be looking for a muslim baby names soon and find one tt have a good meaning. but finding a good meaning - name is not enuf. its the upbringing and teaching fm parents tt is the utmost important.

Week Seventeen
By week 17, your baby weighs about 4.97 ounces (140gm) and is 5.12 inches (13cm) long.
He or she has a much more normal "human" appearance now. She holds her head more erect and her body and limbs are longer in proportion to her head.
Pads are forming on his tiny fingertips and toes. Soon those individual swirls and whorls will be apparent.
Her eyes are looking forward now, but they are still firmly closed.
Meconium (composed of products of cell loss, digestive secretion and swallowed amniotic fluid), is accumulating in the bowel. This black gooey substance will become your baby's first poop!
The umbilical cord is growing thicker and stronger and continues to rush blood and nutrients to your growing baby.
If your child is male the prostate begins to develop.
Her skeleton is tranforming from cartilage to bone. The bones remain flexible to make the journey through the birth canal easier.

14 weeks...

2006-04-03T19:44:00.000+08:00

You are 14 Weeks Pregnant!

WHAT'S HAPPENING WITH YOU
You open the refrigerator door, only to be greeted by the nauseating smell of garlic. But you LOVE garlic. Or rather, you did. Now all sorts of smells seem unappealing at best, and gut-wrenching at worst.
In fact, nearly 85 percent of pregnant women have at least one food aversion. One explanation, according to researchers, is that food aversions peak when hormones are fluctuating. As you progress through the second trimester, and hormones stabilize, your aversions may disappear.
And while aversions to coffee or alcohol may be your body's way of preventing you from consuming anything harmful to the baby, aversions to healthy foods should be treated differently. No, you don't have to force-feed yourself the detested item. Instead, find a palatable alternative that offers similar nutritional value.

WHAT'S HAPPENING WITH YOUR BABY
Your baby is now about three-and-a-half inches long and weighs about two ounces. His or her neck is complete, and your baby even has fingerprints.
He or she is beginning to move around in the amniotic fluid, which, by the way, replenishes itself every three hours. Fetal movement, or "quickening," can occur as early as this week, so be alert for fluttering sensations in your belly. If you can't feel them, however, don't worry, they're more likely to occur between the 18th to 22nd week. In subsequent pregnancies, fetal movement usually is felt earlier.

Weekend updates....

2006-03-28T21:35:00.000+08:00

Friday...

Off to Dr Julianah's clinic @ paragon for the blood test. The needles are freaking sharp & huge that it left my arm bruising. The clinic assistant asked me "shall i get a bigger needle for ur hubby?" I replied "no need. don be cruel to him...." she then replied saying tt it was so sweet of me. hubby handled it much better than me tho i had more needles in me than him... I really prayed i dont have thalasemmia.... the down syndrom and other abnormalities blood test tt cost me a small bomb is normal... Alhamdulillah syukur pada Allah. tt's what every mom to be want for their baby.

After the Dr visit, we went for a walk at orchard tho i am not in the mood. i am still feeling lazy and tired. we exchanged the credit card points for the $60 isetan voucher. i am not in the mood for shopping either so we decided to keep it to buy stuffs for our baby.... i can't wait for that moment... then we off to have a bite at taco bell and decided to watch failure to launch. a nice. romantic - comedy movie and i rushed home to catch the APM. it went ok for me. i love Taufik's performance tho i am not feeling his 'rockers' image... ehhehe. i lurvvve that PETER PAN won!! woohooo! to those who dont know or have not heard of PP, try listening to thier songs, its nice and entertaining. i lurvve all their songs and i can predict that they will be having a concert here anytime soon. hopefully after i delivered so i can enjoy myself instead of sitting down with my head nodding and my feet tapping.... oh btw i must say i hate the 4 show hosts!!! ok not the 2 ladies. i think its time suria choose other male compere. there are much better looking and more professional hosts like syah, tg and najib is much better host tho he is laser but he is not someone who talks dirty....

Saturday

Hubby off to work today. I am bored so i went over to mom place. Met my 3rd sis who came with her bf. I am pissed at her. After such a long time going awol, tada! here she is at mom place reason? to collect her birthday gift. all this while she didnt even bother to call mom to ask abt her nor visit mom during raya, mother's day and mom's birthdays not to mention remembering our birthdays. but if we forgotten abt hers she will be upset and put on a drama. i know mom is disappointed with her attitude but she is her daughter flesh and blood but i cant care less abt her now. the pain she caused mom is too much. last year she asked me for money and i gave her for her birthday this yr i told her sorry no presents and she said "takpa dah biasa" WTF! all this while i bought her gifts fm overseas and this is what she said. it should be us saying tt to u. u have not given us ANYTHING AT ALL!!!! instead been asking. muka tak tau malu. i am really really pissed. we all loved her but how could she do this. she promised farisah tt she will come over on her birthday but she didnt, she promised to come when mom held a feast (doa selamat) but she didnt. and not all the worst thing she did to mom that i will never ever forget, was when mom was very ill and shivering on the bed she comes in to ask mom for money and not even to offer mom any drink or food or even ask mom how is she feeling! sakit hati ni sampai sekarang. she can do what ever she wants coz i cant care less..... but deep down i still love her. i ended up staying over at mom place as hubby works till late and i am afraid to sleep alone.

Sunday

Went over to dad place for a mini birthday celebration for my youngest sis siti shahirah who turns 12 on the 26/3/06. step mom cooked my fav dish asam pedas ikan duri. i ate twice. only the fish head... yummy! had some quality time with dad and sis and we had real good laugh together where i admitted to say some prayers each time i reach home late so tt he would not scold me... ahhaha dad says but at times my prayers did not work out coz i get scolding fm him... heheh tt's when i joked "yeah if i say the prayers more or lesser than the required number of times needed." we all laughed.... i missed u dad and i love u so much....

Monday

nothing much happens as i am feeling sick again coz of a sore gum. my wisdom tooth is giving me prob again. i slept the afternoon away. watched another movie with hubby at yishun 10, nanny mc phee. great movie. i loved it. such a lovely fairy tale.

Tuesday

went to dr jul clinic again. tot of havin it cancelled as i was in lousy state. vomitted out the milk i drank but i felt better soon after. took a cab there and had another scan. everything is fine and this time baby is sleeping when suddenly baby raised one hand and off sleeping. dr say baby is growing. i was given another 10 days mc!!! she wants me to relax and gave me another jab and new medicine to ease the contractions. i am really worried abt work now. i wanted to go back to work but my nursing officer and ssn tell me its best to rest fully. even hubby is angry with me for being stubborn to still wanna go back to work. i hope everything will be fine......

Goodbye to 1st trimester, hello to my 2nd....

2006-03-23T20:32:00.000+08:00

You are 13 Weeks Pregnant!

WHAT'S HAPPENING WITH YOU
The second trimester is sometimes referred to as the "honeymoon of pregnancy." This is because women often regain energy, with much of the arduous work of organ development now almost complete.
As you enter your second trimester, your nausea most likely has faded into a memory. (If you had to stop taking prenatal vitamins during this time, you should begin to take them again as soon as possible.)
You may feel absolutely wonderful. You aren't yet subject to the physical discomforts that may appear in the later weeks of pregnancy and you may finally feel ready to reveal your long-held secret to the world.

WHAT'S HAPPENING WITH YOUR BABY
Measuring in at about seven centimeters crown-to-rump and weighing about two ounces, your baby-to-be will spend the rest of the pregnancy concentrating on growing and becoming strong enough to live outside the uterus. Your baby's intestines have now moved from outside the body to inside the abdomen. While your baby won't be saying "Mommy" for some time, vocal cords are now developing. Your fetus also has developed many reflexes and will squirm inside of you if your abdomen is prodded.

EATING FOR TWO
Soy products are a great way to boost protein and calcium intake. Make sure that soy milk products do not contain unnecessary levels of sucrose.
Yummy Soy Shakes:
Pear Soy Shake: Combine in a blender 2/3 cup drained canned pears with 2/3 cup vanilla soy milk.
Cantaloupe, Banana Soy Shake: Combine 2/3 cup diced cantaloupe with one banana and 1/2 cup soy milk.

since i am on mc for a week, i have been sleeping the day off. after cooking for hubby, back to sleep. i slept till 6pm today and i think too much sleeping is definitely not good too... i am becoming lazier. blood results are back, thank god everything is fine. baby if normal but hubby n i need to do another blood test coz it seems my mvc count is low wanna make sure none of us have thalasemia. not another one! hmmm... don't worry, my baby is a strong lil one... heheh...

Trip to Oby Gyn

2006-03-22T19:16:00.000+08:00

Had an appt on tues with Dr Jul and was ordered to rest at home for a week due to the cramps and contractions i been having. I was shocked "wat? a week?" she asked if i have a prob with that. I am jt worried abt work. Don't know who will cover me for my night duty this fri... i tot the bumps and hardening of the tummy is normal but hey, its not. i really hope everything is fine.... saw baby darling again yest this time, we saw baby head, tummy (cute lil rpund tummy), hands, legs and yup, baby is turning and kicking again. Doc says, "see ur baby is kicking" i am sure this baby is one active baby.

Thank God everything is fine now we are waiting for the blood results. Hopefully baby is normal... Insya Allah. I did nothing much today except to cook asam pedas ikan pari, kangkung sambal and fried egss and jagung rebus... i am tired and lazy wanna lie back on my comfy bed... yawwnnnn

Lucky Charm.... hehehhe cute

2006-03-13T20:02:00.001+08:00

Your lucky charm is a Good Luck Troll!

What's Your Lucky Charm?
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Good luck? seems i need good luck myself... ehheh. OMG will be reaching the 3rd mth mark tom. Finally the 1st trimester is over. i cant believe it tt i am 3 mths pregnant coz the tummy is not visible yet... hmmmmp. but they say its natural coz its my first baby so the muscle is still very "tight" ehhe.. anyho, i am on night shift today till fri... i will miss hubby. miss my bed and his snore... but i will have the weekends to spend with him..!!! i m gng to bed now or else tonight i will not be able to work. pray tt i am not busy for the next 3 nights...

missy preggy signing out!

argggghhhhhh i am so fed up

2006-03-13T20:02:00.000+08:00

after typing and letting out my steam (work related) blogger gave up on me... its all gone. whole day story... its as if adding salt to my wound... wtf!!!!

jt not my day

Del Monte? Must be it....

2006-03-11T21:40:00.000+08:00

Missy & Hubby

I am feeling sick today after eating 1 whole del monte banana tt i took from ED. Seddenly i felt giddy and nauseous. I bluekk a couple of time but nothing came out. so popped the pills. I made the right decision of taking a cab home and not the train coz i know i will be more nauseous than i am now with all the diff perfumes and body O.

Went to the diabetic talk it was ok. at least i did learn something. tho after the tea break i was starting to fall asleep. i am happy to get the goodies tho'. ehehee which includes a free cooking book for diabetic patients!!!! woo hoo... i believe in healthy eating tho i didnt follow it all the time.

I reached home to find hubby sleeping soundly like a baby. I know he is very tired coz now that he is working shift duties and the timing is really bad. He starts at 2.30pm and ends at 12mn and if he does ot he will work all the way till 8am. tt's more than 12hr. and next day he will start at 7.30pm. Next week will be a much relaxed week coz he will be doin the day shift which starts at 7.45am and ends at 4+pm ot will be till 8pm. he will have more time for me. And now tt i am preggy, i really want him to spend all the time with me. Not gng out but jt to stay at home being together - watching dvds or tv. And we will joke and talk to baby....

Poor little NoNoi....

2006-03-09T19:10:00.000+08:00

Read the news for the past few days without fail. the missing 2 year old girl called nonoi and the discovery of her lil body under the flyover and the funeral.... each time i cant help but my heart really go out to the lil girl. she is pretty with big eyes. i am sure she is now in peace and will be much happier wherever she is rt now... Amin.

The few days have been such a relaxing week. EDTC wasnt tt busy and i am feeling much better.. i dint vomit out at all!!! and my appetite is good. been having 3 meals a day and my tummy have grown rounder tho i have not put on weight.... i wonder why???? i wanna be fat! eheheh i am too tired to blog rt now. will update if there's any exciting news....

You are 11 Weeks Pregnant!
WHAT'S HAPPENING WITH YOU
You may be suffering with more frequent headaches as a result of the change in your hormone levels. You can help prevent headaches before they start by eating regularly, drinking plenty of fluids, getting adequate sleep and keeping stress levels low. Ask your care provider if you can treat headaches with Tylenol (acetaminophen), a pain medication that is considered safe for pregnant women. If you experience frequent headaches, if the headache is the by-product of a fever, or if it causes visual disturbances or puffiness in the hands and face, call your practitioner immediately.

WHAT'S HAPPENING WITH YOUR BABY
Your baby-to-be is about 50 millimeters crown to rump and weighs about eight grams (about a quarter of an ounce). The irises are now forming. The liver, intestines, brain and lungs are beginning to function on their own. The primitive "tail" is now gone. The intestines are beginning to migrate into the abdominal cavity and the external genitalia are present but difficult to distinguish. Now that most of the major organ work is done, your baby adds such details as hair, fingernails and toenails. While your baby's head is nearly as large as the rest of her body, head growth begins to slow during this period.

10 weeks!!!

2006-03-03T11:12:00.000+08:00

You are 10 Weeks Pregnant!
WHAT'S HAPPENING WITH YOU
This is an excellent time to schedule a dental appointment. Proper cleaning -- along with an adequate intake of calcium, protein and vitamins B, C and D -- will help keep your teeth and gums healthy.
Moms-to-be should pay special attention to their oral health. The American Academy of Periodontology advises that pregnant women with periodontal disease may be up to seven times more likely to deliver a preterm low birth weight baby. Furthermore, when the disease affects at least 30 percent of the mouth, the risk is even greater.
Find Out If Periodontal Disease Can Cause Preterm Birth
Hormonal changes occur during pregnancy that can affect the gums. The gums may become swollen and inflamed in response to bacteria along the gum line. This is called "pregnancy gingivitis." It usually appears during the third to ninth month of pregnancy.

WHAT'S HAPPENING WITH YOUR BABY
By the end of this week, your baby will have verifiable fingers and toes. The tadpole appearance diminishes as the tail completely disappears. Eyelids fuse and will stay shut until weeks 25 to 27. Both the external ear and upper lip are complete, and the beginnings of external genitalia appear. The average size of your baby-to-be is 27 to 35 millimeters, crown to rump, or 1.06 to 1.38 inches. Your little one weighs in at a hefty four grams! At the end of the eighth week of gestation your little one is no longer an embryo; from now on he or she is refered to as a fetus.

EATING FOR TWO
Your baby needs a great deal of calcium throughout the pregnancy. If you don't get enough, your baby will take it from your body, which may ultimately weaken your bones and teeth. To prevent these problems, plan on doubling your calcium intake. A quart of milk per day or other calcium-rich foods will meet that goal. Other sources of calcium that help you meet the daily requirement include:
1 cup cow's milk or soy milk: 300 mg (Some experts say the calcium in soy milk is more easily absorbed)
1 cup nonfat yogurt: 452 mg
1 ounce parmesan cheese: 390 mg
1 cup collards: 300 mg
1 cup broccoli: 135 mg
1/2 cup cottage cheese: 114 mg
Tofu (100 grams firm tofu): 205 mg
You may have heard that spinach and Swiss chard are high in calcium, however, they contain oxalic acid, which can reduce the body's absorption of calcium. Eat them in moderation.

my baby's heartbeat....

2006-02-27T21:46:00.000+08:00

160 beats per min.... thats how fast my lil miracle baby heart is pumping when we saw lil on last sat. as i lay on the bed with hubby behind me, bot our eyes fixed on the large lcd tv, there lay my lil miracle baby so small and cute, so comfortable in its place - my womb. i can't believe it. then the heartbeat. it was racing and super fast but it normal. :) the next funny thing was, my baby was moving all 4 limbs!!!! baby look so cute. Dr juliana abu says "see ur baby is waving Hi to u" so now after the scan its comfirmed i am now only 9 weeks 4 days. estimated date for delivery will be 28/9/2006! great, dalam bulan ramadhan... i have the lil one's pic but i am not uploading it yet coz its not that clear. i have kept it in a safe place....

next 2 weeks will be the blood tests and we have decided to do the down syndrom test. jt to put my mind at ease, i always have this feeling, weird and scary feeling that my baby will not be perfect. so i will have it done. i want the best for my baby no matter how much it will cost me. the test itself will cost us 300+. it is good coz i will be able to detect abnormalities and birth defects as well as any heart problem before the baby is in the 2nd trimester. Insya Allah everything will turn out fine....

since our last visit and our very first 'introduction' to lil one, the image of baby waving with its tiny lil legs kicking been playing in my mind and i love every moment of it. it makes me feel so happy and proud. i am sure hubby himself was touched by the image....

today i was the merlion.... yup... i hate train rides. smelly smelly ppl!!!! bad breath, strong perfumes.... pls... i was controlling myself fm vomiting in the train but as soon as i reached ttsh taxi stand, while i was sitting down bluuuuuuueeewwwwkkkkkkk.... kind of projectile jt imagine merlion, thats how i look... and i vomited on my jeans and i started crying. for wat reasons i dont know. so, today i went back home wearing the scrub. mom was great she cooked me fried rice her special recipe and i went there jt to have tt. took taxi to and back home coz i do not want to be seen in my scrubs... hehehhe... most of the colleagues even the cleaner che chi told me my baby is boy... but we shall see... to me wat matters most is that my baby is normal and healthy....
p/s i think lil merlion is a great nickname for me coz i vomited alot.... heheh

lil merlion...

Food Cravings....

2006-02-24T23:46:00.000+08:00

Last night i had a craving for bone steak. yeah tulang... so i rang hubby and told him to buy me tulang. this eventhough i know his shift ends at 12mn!! hubby really bought it for me at at 1.30am i was up and eating and sucking the marrow out of the bone. i assure u i am one contented woman.... hahahah.. poor hubby.

today i am more energetic and not as sleepy as yest. i guess i really need plenty of rest and sleep so pm shift is the best.... cant wait for my appt tom with dr julaina and am very excited to see the scan tom.... hopefully everything is well....
here's week 11's info on me and the growing baby.... enjoy

You are 11 Weeks Pregnant!
WHAT'S HAPPENING WITH YOU
You may be suffering with more frequent headaches as a result of the change in your hormone levels. You can help prevent headaches before they start by eating regularly, drinking plenty of fluids, getting adequate sleep and keeping stress levels low. Ask your care provider if you can treat headaches with Tylenol (acetaminophen), a pain medication that is considered safe for pregnant women. If you experience frequent headaches, if the headache is the by-product of a fever, or if it causes visual disturbances or puffiness in the hands and face, call your practitioner immediately.

WHAT'S HAPPENING WITH YOUR BABY
Your baby-to-be is about 50 millimeters crown to rump and weighs about eight grams (about a quarter of an ounce). The irises are now forming. The liver, intestines, brain and lungs are beginning to function on their own. The primitive "tail" is now gone. The intestines are beginning to migrate into the abdominal cavity and the external genitalia are present but difficult to distinguish. Now that most of the major organ work is done, your baby adds such details as hair, fingernails and toenails. While your baby's head is nearly as large as the rest of her body, head growth begins to slow during this period.

EATING FOR TWO
Actually, you aren't eating for two. You are eating for one and .000007865! Realistically, at this time, you only need to increase consumption by 300 to 500 calories per day. That's just one bran muffin and a baked potato! It's important that every calorie you consume be one that is nutrient dense. Okay, you can splurge on chocolate every so often, but you might not want to always gobble it down with a glass of milk. While milk is great for your baby, chocolate slightly decreases your body's ability to absorb calcium.

10 weeks!!!

2006-02-20T19:46:00.001+08:00

here i m at last...

2006-02-20T19:46:00.000+08:00

apart fm being busy wif work i am still feeling tired, lazy and oh i just wanna my pillow again. seems tt my energy are totally sucked out of me....

last night i was doing the 3rd night shift again. yeah its every 2 weeks once. i cant take it anymore so the coming 2 weeks time i am giving it away to ying ying. she needs it more than i do. i wud be very glad to give it away. tho night shift was pretty uneventful over in EDTC, i get pretty bored and very sleepy. and i wud vomit everything i ate. first night i had 1 patient and admit 3 i guess. 2nd night i had 8 and admitted 2 and 1 transfer but it was a peaceful night too... last night i had 4 and admitted 3 very bored, very draggy i never knew how much i missed the sunlight till i did night.. hehehee... so i am on off today and tom.

today i managed to watch 2 dvd's back to back. Zathura and Zorro. very nice movies oh and big momma 2 is ok ok watched tt yest wif hubby b4 he send me off to work. now all alone as its hubby's turn to do pm shift which ends at 12mn. hopefully he does not have any ot today coz i hate sleeping alone.. i am so afraid of the dark.

i had a miscalculation there at the pregnancy counter box. not 8 weeks but 10 weeks now! its amazing to know what is happening inside my womb now. everytime i read abt it, it never fails to make me go owwww, so sweet... omg i cant believe what i am reading. i am now surfing more not porn, hahah kidding... but pregnancy websites.

WHAT'S HAPPENING WITH YOUR BABY
By the end of this week, your baby will have verifiable fingers and toes. The tadpole appearance diminishes as the tail completely disappears. Eyelids fuse and will stay shut until weeks 25 to 27. Both the external ear and upper lip are complete, and the beginnings of external genitalia appear. The average size of your baby-to-be is 27 to 35 millimeters, crown to rump, or 1.06 to 1.38 inches. Your little one weighs in at a hefty four grams! At the end of the eighth week of gestation your little one is no longer an embryo; from now on he or she is refered to as a fetus.

wow! now its a foetus already!!! a baby in the making. nowadays the topic i wud bring up to hubby is only abt our baby. what i want for my baby and the excitement and anticipation of the arrival of the new being, another human being the result of me and hubby.... i am so thrilled and belly belly happy. this is wat i am waiting for the 2 years 8 mths ends with the arrival of little baby.... hopefully everything will be ok till the delivery. Insya Allah. 30 more mins to DIA gtg now wanna shower and watch the handsome and pretty faces.... tata

happy mom to be

Graveyard shift....

2006-02-06T03:12:00.000+08:00

Finally, the 3rd and last day of my graveyard shift... oh how i hate this night duty. but i kind of enjoy the serenity and the quietness of the ward. The first night was a bit busy, 2nd was free and 3rd was the best... so far there's only 1 admission and total of 9 patients.

The pregnancy is really testing and pushing my tolerance level to the max. been having bouts of nausea and vomiting but its not at a very bad stage yet and hopefully it will never be. i just need to hang on till the 3rd month and hopefully i will be as energetic and talkative as always. now, i am just a lazy, sleepy and sick pregnant women. luckily hubby was understanding and he was always by my side to comfort me and to feed me. he bought me food that i wanted to eat and forced me to eat it till the last crumbs... weekend is such a blessiing for me coz hubby is at home and we spends the afternoon sleeping, eating and joking and making silly jokes. was so happy....

i just hope my one wish that is to have a home for our family will be fulfilled soon..... Insya Allah...

Lazy Lissy

2006-01-28T19:31:00.000+08:00

These few days have been such a hard trying time for me.... Been feeling so tired and sleepy and lazy to the absolute max! Hubby kept on telling me to fight the feeling. its all in the head.... he doesn't want his baby to be lazy so as he said.

everytime i am on pm shift, i will drag myself to work and my muscles simply refuse to work. but after a few hours i will be energetic again... the morning sickeness is not affecting me yet. hopefully i won't have it. just the usual giddiness and nauseating feeling. oh God i am hoping this new experince will be a memorable and exciting one. Insya Allah....

Now every night i will ask hubby to talk to the little one by putting his palm on my belly. its never too early to start communication u know... heheheh i will always talk and touch my belly to communicate with my baby and telling her/him that i love her/him very much and to be a strong baby and to hang in there....

*I am enjoying this moment!!!!

My journey to motherhood hv finally arrived....

2006-01-22T21:51:00.000+08:00

How shld i start? For the past 3 days since 20/1/06 the day i found out i was pregnant! yes u read it rt... missy lissy is now missy preggy... hehehheee cant believe it, its a miracle considering my illness. tt's why i call my lil one baby miracle. i was ecstatic. when the hcg test shows + i was like... is it for real? is my eyes playing tricks on me? so i did another test. this time sn noravie did it for me. yup its + for sure. i was tearing and really happy tt i did not know what i shld do. i dont know who i shld call first. hubby or mummy.... heheheheee mind blocked. luckily hubby called me at 2.30 after my shift ended. it was sis farisah's birthday and i planned to go over tho like what i mentioned in the previous entry, tt i was suffering fm my 'menses' cramps. but when i found out i am pregnant, i went straight to see Dr A at raffles who latter instructed me to go kk immediately as i was having cramps. he was afraid tt it might be a threatened abortion. i was so sad. the dr at kk told me she cant see the embryo yet but only the cyst but i am definitely pregnant but a bld hcg test will confirm everything. the next day, 21/1/06 i was on am shift when i received a call fm kk 24 hrs clinic to come down immediately for an urgent u/s scan. it was 7.30am! i was at the brink of crying again i worried abt the condition and i do not wanna lose my baby.... i prayed hard and after the scan which took so long and waiting for the results seems like a million years, the dr confirmed the embryo is rt in its place.... i was so happy so was hubby.

today the 2nd hcg bld test was done and the result shows positive growth of the embryo. my hormone levels was very very high.... hopefully everything will goes well for me.... Insya Allah... mom, daddy, dad, mak edah, mummy & abah and all my family members are very happy for me.... i thank those who have prayed for me and to cuzzies yana & suzee so sorry my mom broke the news to u guys first... i want to confirm everything b4 i break the news... dia amik limelight aku daaaa.... ehhehe

after 2 years and 9 mths, our prayers are finally answered. there is no words to express my happiness and i will treasure this moment, this new journey no matter how hard it gets... now every morning i rub my belly and say good morning, and i love u baby... yup i know its still an embryo but to me and hubby its our baby.... our little one.... :)

The pain is here again.....

2006-01-17T14:22:00.000+08:00

Been having my monthly dose of excruciating pain tho m is not here yet... i dont know why am i being tortured like this.... work have already been tough and now top with this physical pain, how am i gng to perform? i dont wanna take any mc.... so i rely on painkillers which makes my tummy upset. gastritis... urrrggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh. i jt wanna be immune.

this few days i hv been dreaming... a dream tt makes me think and wonder. its so scary tt i cant get it out of my mind. i dreamt tt i adopt a baby coz i cant have any... till the child is all grown up. dah lah malas lah nak ckp pasal nie.... today off... and tom will be shifting up to ward 11a for 6 mths whoaaa!!! yey!!! heheh tak yah nak tgk sumer bende kat ed yg gross... dan menyedihkan. i hate it when someone dies and the family wails and cry outside resus room... makes me wanna cry as well.... hmmmmmmmmmmm

Busy busy life...

2006-01-13T18:39:00.000+08:00

I had a lot to post for the past weeks but i didnt coz i was just too tired or i had no time to log in and type everything.

been very very busy at work lately but i am also enjoying the time i had now in ed. it was fun learning new things and now tt i have a hang of it, everything goes on smoothly tho at times my memory does fail me... how disappointing! eg, i had to perform ecg for a patient for the first time, and i was damn nervous why not, Dr was there and i don't even noe him and he dont knoe tt i m a new staff. so i struggled - finding the landmarks and attaching the crocodile clips to it... it was so messy and the wires are tangled. what a loser! hahaha luckily the report was ok so i didnt have to redo it.

yest i was alone in edtc as sn went for break when dr s told me to discharged a pt. ok it chicken feet. wah, lissy so confident. everything was done and pt left when i realised i forgotten to gave her the provisional bill.... heheheh luckily it is such a small matter. coz we can always post it to her and its not even the finalised bill.

today was the orientation day for the new staff of ttsh. it was fub. made new friends. nice ladies there... here a pic of me and eugene trying our best to put the fire out during our fire drill... taken by ying ying...
As u can see i had a diffcult time to put it out. i hunched and i pressed and i swing but its still alive!!!! heheh ok over reacting. to tell u the truth i am more to building the fire bigger than to put it off... hahah... teringat masa kecik2 dulu main api dag yana & suzi.... hahahah yg kelakarnya bapak dia nampak kita main kat buai2 tapi tak marah pun lagi boleh ckp, "bapak nampak korang main api kat bawah" hmmm kalau ayah akulah dah kene rembat dah... - me speaking fm experience. selalu kene tangkap main api kat buai2 then balik, tali pinggang lah jawab... ehheheh

silent night....

2005-12-27T23:38:00.000+08:00

yup its pretty silent now... quiet coz hubby not at home. no one to argue with. no one to find fault with.... how nice hahahah

my day at ED went ok. i am used to the bedside nursing except for the paper work. i really really need to train my lazy brain to remember things. Dr C asked abt my pts bp reading whch was very low, and here i was.. hmmm uhhhhh as i was searching for the piece of paper... ahahha. not very busy today. tho over at the admission counter and screening the line was soooo long.

i was very annoyed wif singaporeans. they are very good at being 'blind' and acting 'blind' & deaf. i was pushing a pt bed to send her for a brain scan and here, i was pulling the bed coz the porter uncle refused to push! as i exited ED, i said "excuse" but this lady simply refuse to budge, stand there as if she can't see the huge trolley bed i am pulling. we missed her by a few step if not, i am sure she will be warded. i was damn piss man. next when i was on my way to ED, same location infront of the screening counter, ppl crowding and refused to give way to me and the trolley. oh god, how selfish can ppl be? i am on the verge of telling the porter off. if he is not pulling, it's best tt i do it on my own. he is super lazy to the max. k was supposed to send her but she told me to. i realised by now tt this porter was the one she told me earlier. the lazy one. so when i reached edtc, i told her "u very clever rt? u know this uncle dont want to push so u asked me to go when u know i was doing something else." she of course came up with some silly excuses. shut up! i am very pissed with k. she's been ordering me around even to take parameter and admission for patient. after i did the hourly clc, she asked me to do the 4hly para for everyone. and she, kept on talking on the phone. what the fuck???? and when the staff nurse told her to give neb to bed 2, she cleverly delegate the job to, me. who is she? she is not my superior. we are supposed to work together. how can she bully me? when the time to do the next para, she was still on da phone, i can't be bothered with her so, after doing it i said out loud "hey, don't u have any work to do except talking on the phone?" and she refused to go for break till its 7.30pm!!! luckily its not very busy today but tt time can be pretty busy on any other day.

i have been doing all the work, all the para taking, admissions, maintaining i/v fluids and she? checking on her emails, talking, sms and gng to 15 mins toilet break. wtf? i was so dissapointed with her. she ordered me around and telling me what to do and not a thank you? such a bitch! do it again to me tom and see wat u get from missy.

Missy's first day....

2005-12-26T17:38:00.000+08:00

The day went well.... kavi was my saviour for the day and hopefully the rest of the week... learned alot of new stuff and i get the apportunity to ride on the ambulance!!! my first time ever. we were to send a patient back to nursing home. tho i was very very excited, the ride to and fro made me very sick and giddy i guess it must be the seating arrangement. it's facing sideways. kavi slept in the ambulance while i was busy trying to capture a pic of myself... this pic however, i guess by now ppl will know where it was taken. yup, in the cubicle... i don't know why i love to take pic in the toilet... heheheh

i hope and prayed the rest of my time at ED will go smoothly which i predict will not. there are alot lot of back stabbers and hypocrites... i guess we just cant escape fm this group of ppl rt?they are everywhre. after work i went to causeway point just to pass my time. i didnt want to go home. wanna go over to mom's house but she is out. buying sweets for kak ani's baby full month ceremony this sunday. she will be passing it to cuzzie yana & suzee's momma to wrap it up. so i cant go over her house. so there i am walking alone @ the shopping mall which happens to be croweded.. damn packed la. went to bought a pair of lovely ear rings tho i know i m allergic to it. i am giving it another try i hope by painting the "cutex" it will not hurt my little ear. *cross my finger. reached home, decided to do a diy pampering of foot spa, face scrub, face mask and treatment for myself.

it's only the second week of my job and i am already planning what to buy for my first pay... wanna buy the guess watch which cost $285. i hope it comes in pink. i also wanna go to tiffany & co to find a ring and a bracelet. the rings are superbly breath taking... hmmmm.....

Tribute to all those perished in theTsunami disaster - 26 Dec 2004

2005-12-25T16:52:00.002+08:00

Last December's Asian tsunami devastated the shores of Indonesia, Sri Lanka, southern India, Thailand and other countries with waves up to 30 metres, causing deaths and damage as far as the east coast of Africa which left more than 216,000 people dead or missing.

Last yearI was doing the morning shift in ward 8c which is a medical:cardio ward. I was stunned with the pictures that i saw printed in The Newpaper on 27/12/2004. I was lost for words... tears welled up and i let it flow.... I bought the newpaper everyday without fail to keep me updated of the worst natural disaster that ever hit asia. my heart and sympathy goes out to those perished and died and those that have lost their loved ones in the disaster. I wished i could do something to help. I wanted to go to phuket badly to assist but i am on attachment and i can't go anywhere. So, i contacted my family members and relatives to collect money, can food, clothes and we send it to the mosques here. i hope by the little things that we did it could somehow lighten their burden.

Last friday, i watched channel news asia, memorial for the tsunami victims. i still cried. the pictures of the dead bodies made me feel how vulnarable life is. we should treasure every minute of our life. How the survivors lost their mind after having their whole family perished. i hope God will be kind to us and stop the disaster, wars and the terrorist attack. I wish we all could live in peace and harmony without having to lose anymore lives just for the sake of one's selfishness..... life is too short to waste it. we should all make it a happy and memorable experience to be alive. afterall we all must die. it's just a matter of time.......

End of Orientation Week

2005-12-25T16:52:00.000+08:00

Let Staff Nurse Eugene show us how to give IM injection.... ouuchhh. finally the orientation is over. should i be happy or sad? hmmmm.... i am scared as i am now a staff and no longer a student where i can hide and play around. i am now responsible for every action.... it's tough being a nurse. but i really enjoy my job coz it is challenging and always changing. the situation is not something we see daily. we see different patients, different cases, diff illness totally diff as each day passes by. i am glad i get to do something i really enjoy and where my passion is. Come monday, i will be over at EDTC with kavi. she will be my buddy for the week and i am really glad.at last a familiar face. miss her so much. so now i will be starting shift duties no night duty as yet which i am glad. i hate night. makes me sick..... i love my scrub suits..... it have pink lining!

me with kate havin our lunch break at ttsh polar....

The Final Analysis

2005-12-22T18:49:00.000+08:00

People are often unreasonable, illogical & self-centred;
Forgive them anyway,

If you are kind, people may accuse you of having selfish, ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway,

If you are successful, you will win some false friends & some true enemies;
Succeed anyway,

If you are honest & frank, people may cheat you;
Be honest & frank anyway,

What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;
Build anyway,

If you find serenity & happiness, they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway,

The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;
Be good anyway,

Give the world the best you have, & it may never be enough;
Give the world the best anyway,

You see, in the final analysis,
It is between you & God;
It was never between you & them anyway....

Claustrophobic Me...

2005-12-21T20:35:00.000+08:00

Claustrophobia

A phobia is a form of anxiety disorder in which someone has an intense and irrational fear of certain objects or situations. Anyone suffering from high levels of anxiety is at risk of developing a phobia. A person who has claustrophobia may panic when inside a lift, aeroplane, crowded room or other confined area. Some other phobias, borne from anxiety, include social phobia - which is the fear of embarrassing yourself in front of others - and agoraphobia, which is the fear of open spaces. With appropriate treatment, it is possible to overcome claustrophobia or any other phobia.betterhealth

I guess i am claustrophobic. I was putting on the PAPR jt like tt u saw on tv worn during Sars in a helmet with the vaccum like hose attached to it and a belt tt resembles those wrestling federations winner has and attached with a disc. it's cooling when worn but i started to panic and began sweating... halfway thru the practice i wanted to rip everything out... i was gasping and i felt very giddy. I experienced this before while i was admitted @ kkwch. twice on 2 separate admissions. i tot i was gng to die... i began hyperventilating and felt giddy, nauseous, sweating... all this worn without the N95 mask, with tt, i guess i will jt drop on the floor flat..... i hope we will never have a chance to wear tt... coz if we did it spells DANGER!!!! i had such a wonderful time today. managed to pass the test for the ambu bag and other task.... its time to rest now

<3
lys

{now, my journey begins...}

2005-12-20T10:16:00.000+08:00

i was feeling nervous thru out my journey to ttsh on monday morning. me, in the nurses uniform? omg. i hv come really far to jt wear this. while my classmates fm SON PTS 119 are already gng to be promoted and some over at NYP doing their diploma, i am jt starting my career a second shot at nursing. i didnt regret for resigning earlier coz during tt period i get the experience in accounting and finance. it was so much fun but as time pass by, i felt bored to stuck with 9-6 job. being around the desk makes me felt so "lazy". anyway tt's the past forget it....

its the 2nd day of the orientation. was really paying full attention to the demonstration showed by sister so tt i will be able to perform when i am stationed outside. today sister get to the serious topics and more hands on. i m too lazy to type it down. helped farisah to register to ite of her choice. congratulation dear sister for passing ur n levels and i will pray tt u get ur desired course at clementi k. all da best, ur journey starting soon. its time to learn new and more interesting things.....

hubby bought me a pair of adidas running shoes. tho i like the pink & grey one, i hv to opt for the black n baby blue color. Adidas CC Xanthos @ a discounted pricethanks to abg mukri & kak zila. after work i went to metro to look for another bag but its for work purposes. saw the DKNY pink bag but not so nice and too big. i liked one bag fm santa barbara. its so vintage looking and i love the design and the size is jt nice for me to put my paraphernalias and scrubs in. btw i love my scrubs will post my pic wearing the scrubs makes me feels like i m acting in ER.... hehehh. i cant wait to get my very first virgin pay.... wanna treat my family and buy hubby a gift and i wish i still hv enuf to shop!

2005-12-17T21:02:00.000+08:00

{weekend's review} I was pretty busy on saturday with 2 weddings to attend. I managed to get my hair permed - digital perm at Jean Yip which cost me a bomb. so here's my new hair look.... curly, bouncy and i really like it. hope it stays that way. was late for ida's solemnisation ceremony due to the heavy downpour at woodlands. met ani and together we recalled the best and worst and funny times we had in class back in 1993-1997. sweet sweet memory. i knew ani from primary school since 1990 its been such a long time. she, ida, nana and me still keep in touch tho me, ida & nana spend quite alot of time together. lylin danina derived from the five of us. btw linda no longer keep in touch. gone with the wind... hehhe... miss her tho. After Ida's wedding. we went to hougang for hubby's colleague
dinner. met few of his friends girlfriends who are pretty friendly. but the dinner di penuhi dgn stewardess so u can expect yg step macam tangga pun ada yg step macam escalator pun ada but there's a nice gal too. sunday, the three of us fm lil thing's had our flea martket thingy. bad bad sales... bte i came up with a new word as the 3 of us not selling but laughing our hearts out - vulgarians... we are vulgarians... hahahah... had fun and i really need that to stay alive... thanks girls my sunday was well spent. susah nak ketawa cam tu slalu. kencang seh...... kencang? hahahhah u noe wat i mean. wait a sec, was it tt word? or .... ah forget it. lupa lah. the best was on fri. farisah, raishan and me went to kak ani house to celebrate mai and ika's birthday. it was a simple party. after that i rushed to meet hubby at cuppage for the mango sale over at centerpoint. the cab tt i was in was damn busuk man. bau peluh driver tu then i saw him wiping his sweaty hands and use it to wipe his sterring wheel.... kept on wiping. yucks... as soon as i was in his cab, i cant take the smell and immediately told him to wind down the windows. he did ask me why but i didnt wanna hurt his feelings or cause any prob so i kept quiet. it was a torturous ride..... but, i was lucky coz i get to shop. bought 2 tops fm MNG one top i wanted so badly which cost $33 but yest it cost only $19 and i got my xs size! as we reached the 1st floor, we saw the giordano sale 30% off for 1hr only and i grabbed a top with sequines and hubby bought a baby blue shirt. then we went to hereen and finally to cineleisure where i bought another top fm blossomz and met kak zila and abg mukri who had jt finished watching a movie. we decided to go starbucks and chatted till 12+mn. i also bought a guess handbag in beige for a very good price..... heheheh all thanks to? hubby dearest...... i love sales!!!! & luckily we met abg mukri b4 buying the adidas sports shoes coz his bro can get us 2 shoes for the price of 1 how great is that????

2005-12-12T16:02:00.000+08:00

{sick}

not feeling well... the m is here. still here after 2 weeks. urrrgggghhh..... tom i have 2 appointments. 10.30am dr julianah abu wong clinic over at paragon and at 12pm facial at body contours and spa. i jt hope i wont be too lazy to go out. no plans for tom. but i hope i will be much better later so that i cud meet hubby @ town to go mng for their sale!!!!!!

2005-12-11T16:02:00.000+08:00

{rude officer}

our weekend trip to nirwana gardens, one of bintan resorts went really well. we relaxed and rest and went for swim at the pool and the beach. took lots of pics. we also managed to play scrabble and mastermind. it was a lovely trip. to sum it up, hubby was nice to me. we didnt went out of the resort much as this was our 3rd trip there. hubby bought me another bikini. this time its red! nice.

however, our happy weekend trip didnt end with a happy ending. it was ruined by a CIA officer over at tanah merah ferry terminal. after the incident i asked myself was i right to tell him off or did i over reacted? this was wat actually happened. we had just had our bags cleared and i passed by the officer when he point at me to have my bag checked. he didnt say a word! jt pointing at me. ok i placed my bag on the table. he took really such a lot of time to remove the items fm my bag. my make up bag, my novel, my sunglasses and my red bikini. he stopped (with my bikini in his hands) look at other ppl and cont to DIG in my bag. by now i was getting impatient coz if u wanna search my bag, jolly well do it. concentrate on one thing and do it fast. mind u there are alot of other passengers behind us. i was getting frustrated and packed my things into my bag tho hubby told me to let the officer put everything back in place. now, he held the cigarette and asked me how long were we in bintan. i told him 3 days. he took my passport and checked the date. he didnt even ask me nicely his face expression was of such a stuck up person. then he went to tell me "ni rokok eh tak boleh bawak masuk tau. tak ada (entah permit ke apa dia kata)" then point his finger at my hubby "you understand?" hubby jt answered him yes. then he pointed his finger with the cig box in his hand at me "you, understand tak?" my reply? "hey, can you talk to me nicely? bebual tu boleh baik2 tak?" i was very angry and upset with his unprofessional attitude. now he was unhappy by wat i said. he told me "i can give this to you. you want or not?" he's asking me? wtf! i went on to tell him "nak kasi, kasi tak nak kasi sudah!" i could see his angry face. hubby was telling me off y did i said that. now he brought us into the office. he thinks i am scared of him? all the way to the office while we were rt behind him i was complaining "apa dia ingat i takut ke dgn dia? he was being rude ok. tak tau bebual dgn org baik2 ke? he should not point his finger at me!"

i saw him make a photocopy of my passport. by now i was getting impatient coz i was in a rush to get home. hubby went to find the staff sergeant (his superior) and told him wat happened. in his room the sergeant told us the officer denied pointing his finger at us. well, biasalah siapa yg nak mengaku kan. dia ingat kita macam budak2 kita takut ke? there are his colleague around and we told him to check out with the other officer next to him. and i asked him how come this guy stopped me and make a big fuss abt my cig while hubby get away with his while another officer too, saw his packet but said nothing. the sergeant was dumbfounded and wanted to check at the other officer when hubby said lets settle this matter first. we took down the guys name and the sergeant immediately told us that we shld jt forget abt this and he wont be writting any report. and will pass me the cig. hey, don't u guys get it? i don give a damn abt the packet k? nak amik, amik jer. i jt hate ppl to talk to me rudely. geddit? he also told us not to make any complaint. and said that he will look into this.

first of all, to the officer don't think u are a sergeant u can be rude to the public. learn to speak nicely and respect others coz if u dont respect me, don ever dream of me talking to u nicely or even respect u. so what if u r in uniform? i know i am not in the wrong. take the packet it don kill me or make me any worse. mentang2 aku nie mcm budak2 kau nak step dgn aku eh. sorry lah salah org. all this happens quickly that i tot he was a police officer only to realise he wasnt after we left the office. kalau polis pun aku tak takut kalau aku tak buat salah. i also told the s.sgt tt i m also in the cust srvc and we shld all noe how to talk to the public and respect others. kalau tak dpt lah complain letter. tau pun dia takut.stupid!

2005-12-06T14:42:00.000+08:00

{bruised}

i am bruised.
i am numb.
leave me alone.
let me be by myself.
u hurt me time and again and each time i forgive u.
wat am i to?

you could brag now
tellin ur frens how u left me there
alone in the rain
i walked by myself soaked to my skin
in the cold
rain
thunder
lightning
crying
no one heard my cry for help

thank you
thank you for wat u have done
u have bruised me
left me stranded
feeling unwanted
insecure
thank you....

2005-12-02T05:53:00.000+08:00

{Pontianak Harum Sundal Malam 2}

went to jb yest to watched the latest pontianak harum sundal malam2. nak ku katakan seram, tak lah more to kelakar adalah. bayangkan pontianak panjat pokok, naik kuda, terbang nampak kaki tak mengilai dan pontianak dah kene cucuk paku abeh tu tak jadi manusia tapi masuk badan anak yg tak tua2 langsung. kalau mcm cerita hantu lain, once dah kene cucuk paku pontianak tu terus jadi manusia. tak paham lah. yg kelakarnya pontianak menyangkung duduk bawah meja... ahahaaakz... ketawa aku kat dalam wayang tu.... funny la. tapi adalah adengan yg terperanjat. time dia muncul kat scrin tu tiba2. not bad lah. tapi tak seram langsung. dia org pakai ilmu kuda kepang lawan pontianak. tapi bila mati ingat Allah tapi tak gunakan ayat suci Al quran untuk melawan pontianak. tak paham lah.... nasib baik aku tgk kat jb kalau kat sg tak worth langsung... balik dari jb we watched citer anak mami kembali haaa nie lagi power. kelakar and jln citer pun best,....

2005-12-01T12:02:00.000+08:00

{At last.. my journey ends...}

not that my life journey have reached its final chapter. more likely my journey as a student of HMI-IHS. i am now a nurse! everything is settled. collected my license and will be starting work on monday!!!! yippies.... omg, no more late nights and waking up at 12 pm unless i m on pm shift... looking fwd to start my nursing career....

2005-11-27T05:40:00.000+08:00

{weekend programme}

my weekends are quite packed for this week. will be meeting hubby later and we will be driving to sentosa. relax, read my novel, music and maybe i will swim. i am not that keen to swim when i m in sg. its not that i am being such a b@#$%. its jt that i hate having the redness and the itch each time i went into salt water. yeah its new. i had this reactions like few years back. the same goes to rain. yana have seen the rashes and its really so not sexy... hahah

sunday. my cousin bro gettin married. finally. his mom was introducing him girls and urging him to get married. he was engaged once but the girl does not suit him. that's what he said. he graduated from NTU and a very pious young man. handsome and tall. he likes girl to be quiet and religous and respect elders. stay at home kind of gal i guess. so i hope bro, u get tt dream girl k.

my classmate zila also having her doors open this weekend. but i guess i got to give it a miss. i went over on 3rd raya.

the following week, i will be busy with work, i hope and weddings!!!! i cud hear the bell tolls already... my cousin yanti surindah and bf will be gettin married on 4th dec and best friend for 12 years coming 13 will be getting married on 18th dec. so here's my shout outs to the brides and groom....

27/11/2005

Abg Zulkarnain bin Junaidi & Gf
@bedok reservoir

Mohd Nizzam bin Mohd Zeyad & Nuraini bte Masuhan
@Woodlands

4/12/2005

Yanti Surinda bte Abd Hamid & Zul Bakri bin Abbas
@Compassvale

17 & 18/12/2005

Fharida bte Ali & Azhari bin Ahmad
@Clementi

Mafudz bin Hj Nasrun & Sadiah bte Robani
@Eunos Cresent

To all, best wishes and may ur marriage be blessed and filled with happiness....

2005-11-26T12:20:00.000+08:00

{my certificate}

the day that i have been waiting for. its WAS here yest. went to HMI to collect my cert and testi. As I was q-ing up for the bus 145 at Toa Payoh the memories came back. the day siti & i waited for the bus be it rain or shine. that bus have been the only means for us to go to class everyday. the funny and unpleasant memories. ahhhh.... its all over now. the years have passed by so quickly.

i dropped off at shaw balestier to take the escalator and then the over head bridge. the bridge itself held many memorable times i had with my classmates. as i walked i was being taken back to the times i spent with them. each step. the familiar building stood where it was a year and a half ago. it's old and its painting is peeling. i entered from the main door. the area we had our nurses day reception. we were laughing and proud of ourselves. the celebration was a success. i took the lift to the 5th storey and i saw the pic taken on nurses day it was put up in the lifts message board. me, ms loh, siti and some others cutting the cake. the smiles are so genuine. its over now. everything that have a starting will have an ending rt? the school is now very quiet and silent. i can even hear my breathing. i stopped by the lift. i turned to my left. the auditorium turned classroom. tt's where we spend 6 months battling thru thick books, papers & exams together. where we share our tears, laughters, problems and where we became good friends. me & angie.

i felt sad that its all over now. we have our own journey to complete. angie already gotten her license. me? hmmm they forgot to put the seal on my cert! god dammit. i planned to get it done yest as it was my lucky and fav no. 24 jt aint my luck i guess. i received my transcript wanna noe how i fare?

80 - 100% A
70 - 79% B
60 - 69% C
50 - 59% D

I have 1 D, 3 C's, 8 B's & 8 A'S. The D? its for my nursing practice. hahah i was playing in class tt's y i get a D. serves me rt. i was the noisiest, i luv to sleep during lessons and i was the only student to put on more than 1 jacket. i ever put on 3 layers on top and 1 for my legs. it was super damn freezing. and siti, she can hold the trophy for the most vulgar person in class. yup she can be vulgar coz she is the teacher's pet. she can get away with it. but she ends in trouble whenever it was Mr Rowsudeen's class. he wud say, verbal diarhorrea.... hahahahha. cant forget that. siti have helped ms loh to make dvd compilation of our pics. i will try to get it and upload it. its beautifully done with graduation songs.

so i guess i will finally get my hands on my license on monday hopefully it will happen. and i can start working. i need the dosh man. the handbags and tops at the store are begging me to take them off the shelves... ahhaha yeah rt.

2005-11-17T05:45:00.000+08:00

{MIA}

its been such a long time since i blog. due to my infected pc & this stupid modem simply refuse to work on my pc last night. so here i am blogging over at my sis room which is jt opp my bedroom door. how convenient rt? yeah but no privacy at all exceot now coz i am all alone here. listening to songs as i typed.

nothing much happened to my life. yeah its that pathetic except afew incidences that i am not going to say here. i am still waiting for school to call me up to collect my transcript so that i can make my license but till now nope. didnt call. and they are preparing for like 3 of us. wat took them so long to prepare? beats me. my great wonderful friends at ttsh, leo and kavi been askin wen will i be starting work. same goes to zila and others that are over at NUH & KKWCH. thanks guys for the tot. shows that u guys remember me after all. i am so bored at home that i am becoming lazier by the hour and i simply lost appetite to eat. i will eat alot in aday but tom, i will not eat anything except drink. i will get moody and opppps, reminds me of the advert, am i suffering from depression??? hope not. coz i can still smile and laugh. oh god, am i being contradicting?forget it.

for the record, this month itself so many things have had happened. happy, shock as well as sad. earlier this month mom and fendi (ayu fiance) celebrated their birthday on 8th nov. mom 46 and fendi 24. while ayu celebrated hers on 12th nov-24yrs old. she's so lucky. dad gave her a mini compo with dvd and fendi gave her a digi cam. i can see she was very delighted and tt's the best birthday she ever had. so the chalet birthday i gave her on her 17th birthday will be totally out of the record. how fast time travels. my lil sis have grown up. and she is happy. i am happy for her. and on 12/11 no matter how forgetful i m i shall remember everything that happened on that day. how fast and quickly words change. in a fraction of a time ppl feelings changed. and it really true tt a woman is more sensitive than men in terms of the other party show some changes. for me i can read it thru the words. its that simple. no question that needs to be asked.

i asked myself, is this wat was meant for me? this is how life will be? since i was a child, since the day my lil sis and i was being pushed from one aunt to the other to be taken care of, to be fed and to beg for love and the feeling of having a family, i hate my life. i dispise it. i was an angry child. i was angry at everything. at my dad, mom, at god. why of all ppl, it happens to me??? anyway no one was there to answer me. like always. even till now. no one listened in the first place. i wondered that have i, ever left any impact in a good way on anyone's life? it's best to be left unanswered i guess. coz no one listened......

2005-11-03T09:13:00.000+08:00

{SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI}

one more day to go. btw tom is dearest cuzzin suzi's birthday!!! happy birthday to u girl may all ur wish be fulfilled. meet u tom at granny's place. hv not been ablt to update coz my pc infected with spyware its very bad tt's y i culdnt even use my net. luckily ati's pc is available-next door :)

been also busy bakin cookies its my 1st time ever to bake cookies all by myself. its an accomplishment! and i m proud of myself. :P i m now a nurse!! have passed the SNB exam and lookin fwd to work @ED anytime soon. (act i m not looking fwd to work yet heheh)

cant wait for the raya tom to eat all the delicious ayam merah, ketupat, lontong and ok ok shall not say anythin more i m hungry already. will go to geylang tonight after the raya show. i wanna buy the dendeng and ketam again. its sooooooo delicious.. yummy

2005-10-27T02:13:00.000+08:00

{SNB today!!}

been a long time since i update. been busy with my books and baking cookies for hari raya. yippie raya coming. all the delicious food for me to eat... hahah. my pink kebaya needs some alteration. it was big. very big. macam wayang pekji.

i m starting to have butterflies in my tummy since yest. the nervousness of sitting for the exam i jt hate it. hopefully i won choke later. as for preparation, read up abit on anatomy, nursing science but mostly i bet u its gonna be nsg practice. wish me all the best. better stop now. back to revision lissy!

2005-10-15T12:26:00.000+08:00

{Kau Pergi Jua}
10 Ramadhan

Kau pergi jua...
setelah cinta ku kini membara
belum sempat ku curahkan kasih ku
kau pergi tak kembali....

sayangku
tahukah kau di dalam hatiku ini
tersimpan perasaan cinta yang suci
kau bunga ingin ku sunting mu menjadi milik ku
lantas ku abadikan dalam hati...

was listening to the remake of this song by DINODI.
nice and touching. hari ni bangun lambat. kul 1230 baru tersedar. ingat nak tido alik tapi dah nak masuk petang. luckily i dont need to go ttsh. so i can laze around. yeah!
Zzzzzzzzzzzzz

talked to angie on the phone. poor girl. havin prob with the nursing home. told her to go over to MOM and compalined abt her employer. this nursing home is really terrible and horrible. how could they ask them to start work without any employment letter? Angie have not even sit for her final exam. she is not certified yet. n they do not have uniform!!! they are wearing our school uniform. and now their employer who i will call mr s, told them tt they need to pay for their uniform and get it tailored. WTF??? HE ALSO TOLD THEM TO PAY THE BOND AND LEAVE IF THEY ARE NOT HAPPY. ALL THIS FOR?for asking abt their leave and benefits. he is definitely a big bully!!! i told angie to go over to MOM and complained. don leth his threat make them scared. esp when we are in the right, dont be afraid. all i can do for them is advice and i and zila will be gng to MOM with angie n siti on monday. they are afraid to talk so we will help them. i m not trying to be a busybody but to help them. i don wan my friends to be suffering and be bullied. stupid nsg home!!!! i wan the public to know how bad and how he mistreat his staff. they have to use the black trash bag as a apron!!!! is this how u treat nurses?

2005-10-14T07:13:00.000+08:00

{EMERGENCY DEPARTMENT!!!}
8 Ramadhan

one word to describe ED hectic or total madness. Went to TTSH for orientation yest. it was madness. walking around ED was like walking in a maze. so many rooms, so many numbers, so many extention to remember.... wat am i gonna do??? my memory already start to fail me and now this? memory game?

today went again but we are assigned to diff teams. i was not happy with this. i m not a staff yet and i m here for orientation not to do hands on. after lunch i requested to go home which sister allow me to. for the rest they carried on. well, i m still a student. hahahah. tom i need not come but sat there will be an orientation by sister. luckily its 1/2 day. i guess the long break is too much already. i m getting used to it and now become such a lazy ass..... hahhaha

2005-10-08T05:28:00.000+08:00

{Waiting, why am i waiting???}
3 Ramadhan

After sahur i didnt sleep. instead i played the latest game on ngage - zuma. got so hooked up and yes i managed to beat his score!!!! hahahah... i m the champion....

Met angie at 11+am (sorry i was late) took our S'pore Nsg Board (SNB) exam letter from HMI. Didn't talk much to her. Infact i don't wish to take it fm her. I was appalled to hear wat angie told me yest abt her. when prob arises, she simply said tt angie is no longer under the school. btw no point talking abt her. my course ends and so does her presence in my life. i hate pretentials (hahah another non existing word i guess?) act i m kinda tired. tired fm waiting for kavitha. she make me damn piss with her. make me wait for her for 1 hour +!!! didnt even call me to say she will be late and not to wait for her. i went home complaining to angie... poor angie.

know wat i want for buka today? nasi ayam penyek!! fm changi... the sambal... sooooo sedaaappp...

26 days left to Syawal

2005-10-07T11:05:00.000+08:00

{Ayam, ayam lagi}
2 Ramadhan

Smlm buka makan ayam kfc. hari nie ayam gak.. i really cant get enuf of chicken. and, air kelapa thailand. everyday 2 biji kelapa kene kopek. wass up wif tt? Angie finally returned fm her New York trip. she called and we chatted for hours. poor angie had some difficulties during or infact thru out her trip. but she did enjoy it afterall. i really miss her sooooo much. she's one gal tt truely understood my temper and mood swings.

Tonight hubby bought back a super delicious nasi ayam penyek... hahaha yeah tt's the name. u guys must try it. its rated best by tv show TGIF. n i tell ya it does live up to its name. really superb. the chilli is the best... yummyy....

27 days left to Syawal....

2005-10-06T14:24:00.000+08:00

{Pagi Ramadhan}
1 Rahamdan

We had good and appetising food for the opening of Ramadhan. Ikan pari bakar... yummy baru masak nyer lagi tu. fried gobis and sambal sotong and ayam lemak cili api..... sedap menjilat jari... so apa lagi me tambah nasi 2 kali so does hubby.

Like a tradition. when i was with dad, step mom will make hot tea for sahur and cold drinks for buka. so i made strawberry tea for myself.

so, now thinking wats for buka.... heheheh i simply cant believe it tt fasting month is here again. seems like it was jt yest... how time flies by quickly

28 days left to syawal

2005-10-05T09:48:00.000+08:00

{summary of my road trip}

ok first of all so sorry for taking such a long way to write abt my trip. dah nak basi pun eh. been lazy lah since i came back.

so, the time diff bet sg n LA & vegas was like 16hrs? i cant remember. and the flight was pretty long. i spend my time watching the 66 movies! btw we took the non stop flight to LAX airport and its executive economy class which is much better than normal economy class. the service was superb. we have dinner followed by ice cream rounds and snacks now and then. they will make rounds for drinks and tid bits and we also have an area for us to stretch and have snacks and drinks at the back of the plane. this was much better than the flight to zurich. the seats are larger and the tv screen much bigger so it was a comfortable journey.

our flight was at 4pm and we reached LAX at 5+pm (LA time) went straight to AVIS car rental and our adventure starts at 7pm. the temp was low to 15 and i was havin butterflies coz i don noe if hubby can drive the car which was a left hand drive. at first we got lost. couldnt find our way to exit LA towards vegas but we retrack and we are in the high way. the drive up to vegas took us 5 hours. luckily hubby did his homework and printed simpler version of the map. i jt read out loud and find the next exit signs. we stopped over at mac donalds at barslow to rest and hv a drink. reached vegas at 12midnight. the highway to vegas was damn dark no lights like the one we hv in m'sia. hubby told me to look out for the lights and tt is vegas. we saw twice of the bright lights. i was screaming and singing and happy to reached vegas but tt was not vegas. the third light, was vegas! i was so happy and cant stop taking pictures of vegas beautiful and grand hotels & casinos. we went rounding at first coz we do not hv hotel reservation for the night. we went to hard rock cafe and at 1am our eyes cud hardly open and we needed rest so we checked into the motel. cost us us40. but by the time we checked in i culdnt sleep. i wanted to read my books but hubby wanna sleep. it was 3am. i decided to... sleep in the toilet bathtub. hahah took the other bed comforter and place it in the tub and took pillows and i read my book. in the end i fall asleep there.

next day we checked into circus circus & casino hotel. the room was huge and nicely decorated. there was a casino in every hotel. ours, have a amusement park with the rides, rollercoaster and that's whre i won tigger the lion. on this day i had a nose bleed. maybe coz of the cold and hot weather. the temp at daytime was 26 hot n sunny but the wind, was super cold. we went around to view the hotels there and took lots of pics and slept till late at night. 4.30am. went to factory outlet there and guess how much the levis cost. us19.90 onwards. there's nike shop and many more. we shopped like mad. we stayed in vegas for 3 nights.

on sun we drove back to LA. we left vegas at 12pm and i get to see the desert. it was beautiful! the cactus was tall n huge. the sands, mountains.... such a beautiful view. On the way we stopped by barslow again. here i bought coach purse and guess jeans and shirt. (these are original items). hubby get to buy timberland shoes. its only us29.90 and here those shoes cost hundreds... too bad i cant find my size.. sob sob....

reached our resort at laguna beach at 8pm... was damn tired and hungry. after putting our things, i decided to cook rice and curry chicken (all instant food in cans) maklum lah lidah melayu nak makan cili. our room overlook the beach/sea. there was a outdoor movie at the beach. so romantic. it was too cold for me so i skipped tt.

monday:
we went to santa monica beach. hubby wanna look for muscle beach. couldnt find it. end up arguing. mind u the beaches are damn long.....!!! we walked till my leg gonna break. the ppl there are so lively and they do wat they want. so carefree. no need to worry abt wat other say. there was a sikh group playing their instruments and dancing something like bangra dance. we looked and smiled. went to shop for groceries at wild oats...

tuesday:
the day i been waiting for. DISNEYLAND!!!! reminder to others, u don hv to buy tixs online they have promotions gng on and u might miss tt. don hv to buy 2 day tix. its expensive and u can finish the 2 theme parks in jt a day. better go on a weekday less crowds. so we act save monies. the q was very fast and i was impressed. their q ing system was superb we managed to get on all the rides.... xcept for those tt was closed. the rollercoaster and haunted house. overall i met cinderella, peterpan, mickey n minnie, goofy, and lots more.....at the end of the day there was lightning and thunder and heavy rain. i was amused when they, were so happy to hear thunder and lightning. they are like so happy.... giler nyer mat sallih

wednesday:
we chill out at home. we went to hollywood walk of fame and i went mad taking pics of the floor... ahahha we went to venice beach and this time we managed to find muscle beach. there was an outdoor gym by the beach.

thursday:
another xciting outing. we went to universal studious. but i must say disney was much better and xciting. here there wasnt much rides to take but they have lots of effects for the 3d movie. i enjoyed the mummy rides, jurassic park rides and many others. we also went for the studio tour. whre we get to see the sets and studio they used to make movies. we went to the set for tom cruise movie apa tu war of the worlds eh.. ahhh tu ar. we also saw ongng filming of my fav sitcoms, desperate housewife & csi... but we didnt get to see the stars.... shucks!!! u noe the episod in desp.housewife where one of them went to the lake to throw mrs hubbers (think so) ashes??? it was a small dirty lake.... i also saw the set of grinch, bruce almighty and lots more...

fri:
our last day here. checked out. stuffed all the things into our luggage and went to the beach. we also went to long beach. this is super duper long.... and i was already feeling sick. coz of no proper meals. i had gastritis and felt nauseated. so i was in no mood to walk arnd. our flight was at 7pm. so we went arnd. we shopped again at the mall and 6pm returned the car and waited at the airport for our confirmation.

for this trip, i didnt feel sad tt i m leaving. not that i didnt enjoy the trip but i miss our food. but now i miss the temp. the cold wind on my face and i get to put on many layers of clothes something tt i don do here.... ahahha

2005-09-29T15:36:00.000+08:00

{Me and the Bugs life}
This pic was taken at Disneyland california. The best part of the whole trip. I really enjoyed myself there and the memories there will be kept for eternity... hahaha so touchy. but i really do have a great and wonderful time there. the queu for the rides... smooth as hmmm... baby's butt? hahahaa.. ok lissy butt then,.... ahahahha. ok ok i m crazy rt ow. coz i m tired and sleepy and yeah i m cranky again...

today i woke up at 5.30 get hub bf ready and ate bf and off i went to the wet slippery and smelly market. bought my fav crab, cockles, veg and other dead animals..... hahaha. reached home and cook.. by 10am all settled and i am so tired. even my mom in law says "that was fast" hahah masak lauk campak cepat ler... heheh...

So this is how life gonna be for me for the next 1 1/2 mth. not working, jt sitting at home waiting for my exam... kinda bored.... hmmm.. i shall find a part time job tt is....

2005-09-29T05:29:00.000+08:00

{I am back...}

I am so glad to be back! Not that i didn't enjoy the trip or wat, but i miss the familiarity of the ppl around me, the smell, the temperature and most of all is the FOOD! I miss my tom yum soup!!! While we were there i was hanging dear to my cup noodles-curry. I kept it for myself. only me. that's my only hope to get the hot chilli taste....

But now that i am back here, i miss the cool breeze of vegas and LA. It makes me feel so fresh and energetic. i miss the feeling when the cold wind touched my face. but during the first few days i reached, i had very very dry skin on my cheecks and lips.. i even had nose bleed twice. once in vegas and once in LA while we were shopping at venice beach. my jacket are stained with blood... luckily i didnt faint.

Overall i enjoy the place and the ppl around me. They are less busybody and kiasu like ppl in the land of singapore who claim to be gracious. Funny incidence, the resort in LA have this smoke detactor jt outside the kitchen. the alarm went off not once or twice but trice! i was frying some sardines and it triggers the alarm... hubby and i rush to open the window and doors... and using the broom to fan the smoke fm the detactor... will update more but rt now i m jt tired, sleepy, cranky and lazy to do anything... it's raining wat u think is best for me? sleep that is...

2005-09-15T06:00:00.000+08:00

{checking in}

angie & kavi didn't make it to send me off. so our plan to give angie a surprise birthday celebration is cancelled. siti came early today and helped me to paint my nails pink! and helped me to carry the luggage and off we went to the airport to meet hubby. had our luggage checked in and went for lunch at fish & co... yummyyyy.... :)

took some pics wif siti and she sent us off.... it's a first time for us. usually no one wud sent us off. once in, we went straight to the duty free perfume section. i didnt buy anything. tot of buying anna sui make a wish perfume as it's my fav but they only have it in 50mls. hubby bought himself a hugo boss the green bottle perfume and now we are waiting to board the plane.

16hours to spend on the plane, hopefully we wont develop any bedsores or rather seat sores..... ahaks....

2005-09-14T23:30:00.000+08:00

{Butterflies in my tummy}

in a few hours time i will be leaving my house for the airport. and i hv been having butterflies in my tummy since monday. didnt pack our bags till last 9. hahah last minute pack. was lazy to do the packing.

yesterday i went for facial and on my way to body contours spa, i was wondering... wat if on our way to las vegas we met some bandits??? wat should i bring as a weapon? perfume spray? pepper spray? knives? parangs? or baseball bats? nah,,.... asked hubby wat if.... he said dont stop at all times. no to hitchikers and no tooo anything.... i am really scared and worried for our safety. reading abt the couple who died in a car crash few weeks ago in australia doesn't help at all... i really hope i will be safe and sound.

my mom is also worried and keeps on tellin me not to offend anyone there... like i would... heheheh she said if they ask u to sit, u sit. if they say arikato... there she goes... i jt laugh. mom, u not helping at all... so jt sheeshhhh... i am already scared shitless.... pls pray tt we will be safe k. love u mom, sis... everyone lah.... incase i dont make it... pls forgive me k... hahahah hmmm do i need to write a will? jt n case.... as if i hv any

2005-09-13T08:22:00.000+08:00

{Weekends update}

finally the attachment comes to an end. hey ppl its holiday time!!!!

on saturday night we went to wati's dinner. she looks so gorgeous and her hubby is a perfect match for her... handsome. met tutty & babat and ju & fiance. too bad aisyah & fiance cant make it. had a hell of a time with them. was laughing and joking as we were waiting for the other guest arrives. minus pt was, the guest arrived super late and the dinner started only at 8.30 when the time on the invites stated 7.30. it's a 1 hour delay. i hope ppl will be more responsible and toughtful. that is, come on time. we, being the 1st to be seated waited for more than an 1! we were famished!

sunday was great. spent the day with hubby watching urban legend and some music video awards till late afternoon. cancel my plans to go dad's house as it was raining. we then went to bugis. wanna try Qiji but there was nothin nice to try so we had our dinner at bugis junction thai restaurant which i will never ever patronise in my life. the food is damn ex and its not nice and the portion is damn small.... worst still, its my treat... ahahhah.... niway i like to spend the day wif hubby.... jt the 2 of us.....

2005-09-11T05:00:00.000+08:00

{Last Day!!!!}

Took this pic at the durian shop..... kind of like the picture alot... and the durians, yeah... damn delicious.... cant get enuf of it... so yummy...

Uma, Eve, Gay Cheong & Moi...

we can't stop taking pictures and reminiscing the times we spend togeda.... me, angie and kavi... we are sad that the attchment & course have ended... feels like yest wen we were introduced to each other..... how fast times flies..... i will miss angie alot... she is my dearest friend that i dun wan to lose.
We went to geylang to eat durians,.... yummy delicious. will go there again today wif hubby.... if he wants to eat. i will have a long rest till nov before starting work. was told by TTSH HR that they will be putting me at emergency department. something that i m not looking fwd to... kind of dun noe wat to expect and scared..... but put all that aside, i shall enjoy my long hols and trip to los angeles this wednesday.....

2005-09-07T10:20:00.000+08:00

{eat shit?}

Pardon me for the offensive word used... its actually a recap of a funny encounter that happened in the ward today. As usual, i will try my very best to communicate with the ah mah n ah po in mandarin or hokkien but i ends up talking to them in mandarin, hokkien, malay & english. it was such a rojak. Angie wud be mad and ask me to stop. coz all tt i talk is nothin but nonsense.

my patient bed 77 want to go toilet and was complaining to me that she was havin constipation so here the clever missy goes... Bijou :"ah mah, tan (wait) lu chiak (u eat) pangsai (shit)...." before i cud continue, the old lady replied to me "huh? chiak pangsai??? mai lah... (wat eat shit? dun wan lah..." both of us including angie burst into laughter.... i began telling her "mai chiak pangsai lah ah mah. lu chiak pangsai yok... (not eat shit lah, u eat shit medicine) which in the ends piss angie off she tells me to stop talking in hokkien coz i sounds so crude.... it was so funny that the ah mah laughed all the way. i apologised to her for my blunder and tried very best to explain to her wat i was trying to say..... hmmmm.... better stick to my english and angie can be my translator for the next 3 days.

received a call from TTSH HR dept asking me to come down for an appointment on thurs after work. actually it is more of a "talk". they wanna know about when i will be starting work work them. how nice if they were to tell me they are keen to send me to NYP to continue wif dip in nursing if my grades for the finals is superb... yeah dream on gurl. anyway, i have another plans. dun wanna be tied to this tiny island foreva.... Insya Allah if god willing.....

2005-09-06T10:18:00.000+08:00

{da FINAL countdown}
Kavi the pimple, Lyssa da forgetful & angie the farty farts

Lydia, Bijou & Evelyn

sat for the surgical paper today which is also the last and final paper for our nursing course. next, we are counting down to the date of our FINAL licensure paper in mid sept. yeah i might make it but looking at the load in LA on 23 sept its left with 8 seats now. and i will only reach s'pore 2 days later. i dont think i can make it on time. most probably i sit for the exam with evelyn on 26 october. hopefully ttsh approves this. now, i can start packing my clothes and let a huge sighhhh.... tt the exam prob is settled.

glad to know tt eve, lydia n yani will be sending me off on wed. yippieeee!!!! i have company to the airport..... act i hv been craving for pamelo since 2 weeks ago. shall go and buy it now!!!!.... *bijou walks away droooling....

2005-09-04T05:33:00.000+08:00

{CHIJMES} went to chijmes last night with Angie & Awyn. it was such a boring event maybe bcoz it was starting to rain and the turn out was not as wat we expected. join in the q for the free Jack Daniel drink which with just 1 cup i was already giddy & couldn't walk the straight line that angie told me to walk. we were kind of bored and i kept on apologising to them for askin them to come. they left & i was alone waiting for hubby and zila & her hubby to come. went to raffles hotel rest and sat and drink n talk till 12+. i was very very giddy n felt like vomiting. *regret tt i drink on an empty stomach. reached home and i forced myself to vomit. yuck!!! kick myself in da ass for bein stupid.....
no plans fpr today. invited angie & siti to come over to watch some dvd's but angie were too lazy to move her ass and siti haf to accompany her mom to yishun so her i am all alone.... in my room...

biJou

2005-09-02T12:29:00.000+08:00

{Sugar Rush} Met cuzin suzee at bugis rt after work to find da damn box. my legs are very very tired as today was a super busy day. poor suzee had not had any food since mornin and was already hypoglycaemic. luckily she didn't fainted. cont the search till plaza sing's spotlight but found nothin, zilch. the smell of waffle from this ice cream restaurant (i forgotten the nae) was sooo tempting that the gready bijou & suzee bought one each. mine was the banana & caramel with strawberry ice cream & suzee had chocolate waffle with double choco something like tt. guess wat, it was very sweet that we couldn't finish the other waffle. such a waste.

i m literally counting down the days to my finals. its 5 more days excluding tom. didn't study as i was so tired and was busy with other non important things like gng out, shopping for a new sandals and personal artefacts... heheh make ups.

hopefully tom plan will go smoothly as planned. some of us girls will be gng to chijmes for the perfect 10 Jack Daniels event and a mini gathering as well. awyn my dear sis will be joinin us too... lookin fwd to the weekend....

2005-08-30T20:03:00.000+08:00

{i m leaving!}

had enuf of the spying thing. at work & now at this stupid home. y can't i hv my own space? y can't i hv my own privacy??? oh because i m married! so once u r married u dun have ur own life to lead? is tt it?

had enuf of the lying n bluffing n the ctaching game. told u i had enuf! enuf! enuf! i m leaving & u told me pls do so.... fine i will show it to u... coz I M LEAVING!!!!

BijoU

2005-08-30T01:14:00.000+08:00

{Don't Lie}

Yo, I'm lying to my girl
Even though I love her
And she all in my world
I give her all my attention and diamonds & pearls
She's the one who makes me feel on top of the world
Still I lie to my girl, I do it

And I lie and I lie and I lie till there's no turning backI don't know why,
(and I lie and I lie till I don't know who I am)

Nononono baby, nononono don't lie
Nononono, yeah you kno know know know you gotta try
What you gonna do when it all comes out
When I see you & what you're all about

i cut & paste the lyrics & yeah its not in the correct order..... did it on purpose... i m disappointed by wat u did & .... i m simply lost for words... wat u wanna me to say?

BijOu

2005-08-29T11:20:00.000+08:00

{An Evenign wif Ayu}
My dearie sis came over today and i had to really rush to clean my really untidy room... Helped her to install mp3 and download some dongs into her mobile phone... had fun talking and laffing. she is the conservative type and likes soft, and not too rock songs... did the same for his fiance, fendi's mmc card but sadly after all the hardwork of choosing songs, can't played it on his ph. asked him to get it replaced as they had jt bought the card yest. ayu called to say the salesman weren't happy wif them tt the card is faulty. changed twice and in the end fendi had to pay $13
for a diff card. stupid salesman! bully!

while waiting for fendi to fetch her, we managed to play make up. ayu is a simple girl. she dun like putting on make up so i decided to do a mini make over for her.... tada... she's pretty... hopefully in future we can meet up more often and have a sister to sister chat.....
BiJou

2005-08-28T14:37:00.000+08:00

{JB with Hubby}

Smile & the world smiles wif U

It was the first time ever we went to JB by foot. Decided nt to ride on the bike as we are very sure tt there will be a jam. went to kota raya to send our baju kurung tailored as i was super tiny... hahah petite, i wont get a ready made one easily. the tailor told me tt i m a size xs and i replied yes fyi this shirt i m wearing is a kids L size.... heheheh...

What lies ahead of us????

After tt we went eating, opps nope me, i am the only one eating, damn full and so contented tt i was smiling all the way. bought dvd's and was stopped by the police. kept my cool and smiled... hahah luckily i managed to get thru.....

You walk i walk... u run, i run.......

Felt so tired and sleepy..... but it was such an enjoyable day to spend wif hubby.... i prefer to take bus or drive where i culd talk to him. but taking oublic transport of coz have its negative pts.... waiting and longer travelling time... but it gave us time to bond.... pathetic??? i dun think so...

BijoU

2005-08-28T09:10:00.000+08:00

{cRazineSs}

Went to HMI-IHS today for a revision for the upcoming SNB exams but ended up doin a mock exam. Guess wat? None of us were prepared for this... when Ms Loh saw my face she asked abt the change of roster tt i did without consulting the oily. well, we hv consult her but it was turned down reason bien, ward NO does not approve. now tt NO approve the chage they are saying i am in the wrong by overwritting oily. wad da F? so, i wasn't keen doin the paper with so many things running in my mind. surprisingly tho' i managed to score 78%. Not gd enuf gurl. i was really pissed off when ms loh told us that she receives call sayin we 3 went mia. by now we knew who the spy in the ward was. it was benny the farkin butch! kept on starin at us as if i owe her $$$$. wat the prob with the gurl? oh the guy? opps i dunno which one to descibe u. note to benny: quit starrin at me coz 1. i dun like it 2. i didn't owe u money nor owe my life to u 3. i noe i m pretty but, i prefer guys to stare at me not u! 4. go n get a life!!!! 5. jt mind ur own buisness will ya?

Met part of my classmates and we shared experiences. went to tekka with tembam & izza & we all ate tosai. yummy i was the 1st to finish as i was super hungry. then tembam n i went to mustaffa where i bought 3 hindi vcd's and some toothpaste n veet shaving thingy....

now, gonna take a shower, do some laundry, cleaning up the room n watch my hindi vcd's... and start to fantasise again.... sigh, how nice if life is so simple, pure, easy, beautiful & enjoyable.. but, tt will not be life rt?

Bijou....

Switched to Blogspot

2005-08-26T10:53:00.000+08:00

Decided to switch over to blogspot coz i find it's much more user friendly and easier to use. but now still trying to find out how can i change the layouts... anyone, can help me????
Btw went to starbucks during break time with angie yummie, yummie... tomorrow ttsh starbucks will be havin 50% off for all staff... gonna grab that oreo cheesecake!!! meanwhile, i hv to cont searchin n learning this new blog....